Week 9 : Cameras, Dinners, and Family Members.

Well this week wasn't the best for me...  Also I'm sorry this isn't a column on a disorder. I guess I just don't feel up to having to research a disorder today.

So, yeah, sorry about that.

I guess this holiday break has it's ups and downs.  By that I mean my cellular device kicked the bucket last week so (the up to this week) was that I got a new phone. Another up? Well my dream is to be a concert photographer and do fashion photography.  So my father helped me pay for a DSLR camera(those large cameras with huge lenses) to improve my skills.  That was one of the happiest things that happened to me over this break so far.

If anyone even reads this would you leave a comment on something good that's happened to you lately.

There were a number of downs too.  On Christmas eve I had to visit my therapist.  We had to talk about my relationship with my parents on step-sister.  Not fun...

Then the next day was Christmas, so I had to go to a dinner with my family.  It was a struggle having to eat the food.  I had only eaten a small portion of roast, a few green bean stalks, and the top of a small fluffy bread in a muffin cup thing(I honestly have no clue as to what it's called.)

I'm glad they didn't notice the small amount I ate.  I don't know what I would have said if they noticed.

One last down and I'll go.  Tomorrow my step-sister is coming home.  I don't have the biggest bond with her.  She hasn't been a major person in my life.  I'm scarred that if she's home she'll notice how I don't eat breakfast or lunch.

In other words I might be potentially confronted for it...

That's all for this week.  If anyone reads this I'm sorry for not having researched.  Sorry.  Maybe check out my Tumblr?  Warning it may be triggering and I don't promote eating disorders.  It's my only way to cope.  Anyway it's: http://just-a-rotting-soul.tumblr.com/

I believe this is from Tumblr...

I don't remember I found this in my Thin-spo file on my laptop.

Week 8 : Night Eating Syndrome

This week I've decided to research on Night Eating Syndrome. NES (Night Eating Syndrome) is often like BED(Binge Eating  Disorder) but it occurs mainly at night.
Last week I had to do research on what I would be doing, or as my teacher said 'research more of your topic.' So now I have about the next six weeks topics already set. So that's pretty good to me. Another thing I have to go to a pediatric psychologist, since my family doctor diagnosed me with a panic disorder...yay...Note the sarcasm.
BUT! this isn't about my problems, that shall be featured in another blog. Back to the original topic!
NES sufferers are different from BED sufferers, yet people with NES are often binge eaters. People with NES often binge at night, eat less during the day, and don't often binge.
Therefore it's said that most people with NES are often overweight or obese. Which in turn can cause several health problems like any disorder. Below are some that I've found :

• Gallbladder disease
• Heart diseases
• Several types of cancer

NES studies show that people sometimes have a history of substance abuse and depression. They often feel depressed at night. Also they may feel tense, moody, anxious, nervous, ect. during the night.
Usually NES has people eat fatty, sugary foods at night. Some are even sleepwalkers.
I'm so sorry this has to be cut short, but i need to try and get some sleep. aka I keep falling asleep whilst writing this.
Farewell for now.

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Week Seven: Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified

Well, seven weeks into this blog.  I guess it was about time we got to this. Sigh. Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS).  Well basically EDNOS is an ED(Eating Disorder) in which a person may not meet all the criteria for a specific ED.  An example could be in which a person meets all the criteria for BED(Binge Eating Disorder) but does not have some BED behaviors.
Another example I'll use myself. I don't qualify to be diagnosed with AN(Anorexia Nervosa) because I still get my period. Yet I meet all the other criteria. So I would be diagnosed with EDNOS, not AN.
Oh my stars this is hard to type...
Some common signs of EDNOS?

• A female patient could meet all of the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa except she is still having her periods
• A person could meet all of the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa are met except that, despite significant weight loss the individual's current weight is in the normal range.
• A person could meet all of the diagnostic criteria for bulimia nervosa are met except that the binge eating and inappropriate compensatory mechanisms occur at a frequency of less than twice a week or for duration of less than 3 months.
• The person could use inappropriate compensatory behavior by an individual of normal body weight after eating small amounts of food (e.g., self-induced vomiting after the consumption of two cookies). This variant is often called purging disorder.
• The person could repeatedly chewing and spitting out, but not swallowing, large amounts of food.
• Binge-eating disorder is also officially an EDNOS category (see separate fact sheet for BED): recurrent episodes of binge eating in the absence if the regular use of inappropriate compensatory behaviors characteristic of bulimia nervosa.

(information found on http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Section=By_Illness&template=/ContentManagement/ContentDisplay.cfm&ContentID=65849)

The list can go on and on as someone diagnosed is different.
I'm sorry this one is short but it's very hard to write about EDNOS. Wanna know something? More people are diagnosed with EDNOS then AN and BED combined.
Hmm... I think I'll also start referring to AN as Ana, and BED as Mia.
That's as much as I can write about this, until next time.

Week Six: Binge Eating

This week, I thought I would cover the eating disorder called Binge Eating Disorder.  Binge Eating Disorder (BED) is a type of eating disorder not otherwise specified and is characterized by recurrent binge eating without the regular use of compensatory measures to counter the binge eating.(www.nationaleatingdisorders.org)
So basically it means that someone with BED has frequent episodes are eating large amounts of food in a short amount of time without regular use of other things to get rid of the eaten food.  Its like Bulimia Nervosa, but without regularly getting rid of the consumed food.  BED still makes you feel guilty, depressed,or disgusted after eating the food.  Like any ED(eating disorder) people who have these mental illnesses can still be of normal or heavier weight. BED makes people often express shame, guilt, and distress over their ED.
Some signs of BED are :

• Being unable to stop eating, or being in control of food intake.
• Eating even when you know your full.
• Hiding food to eat in secret later.
• Eating normally around others, but when alone you gorge.

Some of the symptoms of BED are:

• Feeling stress or tension that is only relieved by eating
• Embarrassment over how much you’re eating
• Feeling numb while bingeing—like you’re not really there or you’re on auto-pilot.
• Never feeling satisfied, no matter how much you eat
• Feeling guilty, disgusted, or depressed after overeating
• Desperation to control weight and eating habits (found on  http://www.helpguide.org/mental/binge_eating_disorder.htm)